spider – EP

“spider – EP” is a series of four songs drawing from the breakcore, harsh noise, modern jazz, and early 20th century classical styles. I wrote “spider” to encapsulate some of my experiences with hallucinations induced by a schizoaffective disorder- both positive and negative- as well as the feeling of not being taken seriously or stereotyped because of my identity when I try to explain my experiences to others. In this video, I will show short demos of each track that are most effective at conveying their respective messages. The recurring use of bitcrush filters represents the need to filter my thoughts into words that cannot fully encapsulate my experiences when I talk about psychosis, and the heavy inclusion of breakcore elements throughout the EP is symbolic of the stereotyping I receive.

The first track, “spider,” evokes the tiny, fleeting hallucinations that I experience on a near-daily basis.

The second, “hooded,” is reminiscent of a particular time I hallucinated that someone was chasing me down the sidewalk at night.

The third, “gunplay,” is an auditory recreation of my sudden recollection of a particularly disturbing image, and a subsequent, even more disturbing hallucination.

The fourth and final, “horizon,” is meant to evoke the feelings caused by my more profound, grounding, and sometimes heartening hallucinations.

Enjoy.

This project is purely instrumental, with extremely limited visuals.